{"id":928,"date":"2014-01-13T21:33:14","date_gmt":"2014-01-14T05:33:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/?p=928"},"modified":"2014-01-13T21:38:36","modified_gmt":"2014-01-14T05:38:36","slug":"recurring-dreams","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/2014\/01\/13\/recurring-dreams\/","title":{"rendered":"Recurring Dreams"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Over the years I keep having the same recurring dreams. And these dreams aren’t very good ones, either.<\/p>\n

The dream that I’ve consistently had my entire life is thus: I’m being chased. Something, and I don’t know what or who, is chasing me and I can’t get away from it. Sometimes I’m in the house I grew up in, running from room to room, rooftop, basement, in and out of doors and windows. Sometimes I’m outside, and it could be the forest or a town I’ve lived in from my past. No matter what I do, no matter what I try, whether on foot or in a car or flying somehow, I just can’t get away. I don’t know what it is, but I do know that it is bad, and I cannot let it catch me, so I have to keep running away trying to escape.<\/p>\n

I got out of the Navy in January 1995. And since then I often have the dream that I’m back in the Navy. I’m back on the ship that I hated so much, trapped, unhappy, full of angst. Always in this dream I’m serving a life sentence, never to be discharged, forever serving aboard the USS Antietam. I can smell so vividly the JP5 fuel, and the PVC decks, and horrible BO of the dirtbag sailors in engineering. All the people that I hated are there, still making me miserable, taunting me, physically assaulting me, but I can’t speak and my punches are in slow motion and ineffective.<\/p>\n

Ten years ago I graduated from college, in May 2004, from Chico State. And in my dream I’m back in college. It’s my last semester. It’s the final day of school. And I have to go take a final for a class, one that I obviously need to graduate, and I have not been to this class in weeks. I’m completely unprepared. I’m panicking. I have to take the final for this class and I know I’m going to fail, and not graduate.<\/p>\n

And then I wake up from these dreams. I’m usually breathing heavily, sometimes in a cold sweat, and feeling…dread. Like something from my past is unresolved. I don’t know.<\/p>\n

I don’t know why I keep having these dreams. But I do know that I wish they would stop.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Over the years I keep having the same recurring dreams. And these dreams aren’t very good ones, either. The dream that I’ve consistently had my entire life is thus: I’m being chased. Something, and I don’t know what or who, is chasing me and I can’t get away from it. Sometimes I’m in the house […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_crdt_document":"","jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[4],"tags":[538,66,74,536,533,537],"class_list":["post-928","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blogs","tag-antietam","tag-chico","tag-college","tag-dreams","tag-hayward","tag-navy"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/paF8Q-eY","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/928","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=928"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/928\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":931,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/928\/revisions\/931"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=928"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=928"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=928"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}