Back in November I crawled into my hole (my room, the bat cave).<\/p>\n
The holidays were here and I did not want to celebrate. I did not want to be reminded of “stuff”. I didn’t want to think about it. I did not want to see that empty chair.<\/p>\n
My mother’s birthday passed. Then Thanksgiving. Christmas. My birthday. And finally, New Years Eve.<\/p>\n
All these events, for almost all of my life, I have spent with my mother and my family, or close to them. This year, of course, my mother wasn’t here. And I didn’t want to celebrate without her. So I crawled into my hole.<\/p>\n
I think my intention was to pretend that it wasn’t really happening. That didn’t work too well. In fact, I think I made things worse by spending all that time alone. It hurt me, inside.<\/p>\n
A wise friend suggested that instead of celebrating old traditions, without mom, to create new traditions instead. This, to me, seems a better choice. Definately better than spending two months alone in my room. I will try creating new traditions next year.<\/p>\n
When you’re sad, or lonely, or depressed, have you ever bought something? You know, to try to numb the pain?<\/p>\n
I bought an Xbox360 last week. I had my friends over on Friday night to drink beer and play Tiger Woods 2007. And on Sunday we played 9 holes at Mission Hills golf course, then had dinner at La Imperial’s (and then we came back to my place for more Tiger Woods 2007).<\/p>\n
So I think the Xbox360 made me a bit happier. Although I suspect it’s because I’m spending more time with my buddies because of it!<\/p>\n
So anyway… I’m out–I have emerged. The holidays are over and the weather has been beautiful here in Northern California. In fact, today it was 65 degrees without a cloud in the sky. It’s times like this that make me say, “I’m glad I live in California.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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