{"id":242,"date":"2005-08-27T18:14:05","date_gmt":"2005-08-28T01:14:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/wordpress\/?p=242"},"modified":"2005-08-27T18:14:05","modified_gmt":"2005-08-28T01:14:05","slug":"a-beautiful-lie","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.teebiss.com\/blog\/2005\/08\/27\/a-beautiful-lie\/","title":{"rendered":"A beautiful lie"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I am a night person.  When normal people are getting ready for bed, I&#8217;m in my prime.  Midnight is usually when I feel the most awake.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been this way all my life.  I&#8217;ve heard people say things like, &#8220;If I sleep too late, I feel like I&#8217;m wasting my day.&#8221;  I beg to differ.  If I go to bed early I feel like I&#8217;m wasting my night!<\/p>\n<p>Nothing interesting happens during the day.  People go to school or they go to work.  Boring!  Night time is when the fun stuff happens.  Bars aren&#8217;t packed during the day (usually).<\/p>\n<p>People are more social at night.  Dinner parties, pubs and nightclubs, leisure time.  Day is when you do stuff you&#8217;re supposed to do&#8211;work, school, the bank, errands&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>I like the night!  I&#8217;m fascinated with astronomy and the night sky&#8211;the best time for viewing is at night.  I consider myself a social creature, and therefore, I prefer the night.  Maybe it has something to do with being born at 8:20pm on December 29th 1971?<\/p>\n<p>I also have trouble falling asleep.  For some reason, when I lie down to go to sleep, my brain thinks it&#8217;s time to think.  I think about my own mortality, things I need to do, past experiences, things I&#8217;d like to do in the future.  Even when I&#8217;m exhausted, I still find it hard to fall asleep.  Even when I&#8217;m drunk, I still can&#8217;t fall asleep right away.<\/p>\n<p>When I was a kid I didn&#8217;t have a shade or blinds on the window by my bed.  I remember there was this street lamp that would shine right through the window.  I&#8217;d stare at that stupid light forever wishing I could fall asleep.  My sisters slept in the room next to mine, and they would be asleep in minutes.  But not me, oh no!  I&#8217;d lay there, pissed that they could fall asleep so easily, while I lay there, wide awake for hours sometimes.<\/p>\n<p>If the family was going to do something fun the next day, like on Christmas eve or if we were going camping or on vacation, I could pretty much forget about sleeping.  Every so often I&#8217;d glance over at the clock&#8211;11:23, 12:01, 1:47, etc&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Every so often my sleep patterns will get really out of whack.  One day I&#8217;ll sleep for like 12 hours to catch up on all my lost sleep for the week.  This really fucks me.  Next thing you know I&#8217;ll be going to sleep at 9am and sleeping all day.  In an effort to try to get back on track I&#8217;ll try to stay awake for 24 hours.  You&#8217;d think after being awake so long I&#8217;d be really tired and fall asleep right away&#8230;  nope!  I&#8217;ll lay there for an hour at least.  Finally, after a few days of the 24 hour thing, I&#8217;ll get it right and fall asleep early, like before midnight!  But this doesn&#8217;t last more than a week, and I&#8217;m right back to falling asleep at 4am and waking up at noon.<\/p>\n<p>I like to sleep.  When I was in high school I&#8217;d sleep my weekends away.  Saturday and Sunday I rarely work up before 1pm.  I really do need a solid 8 hours to be happy.  Unfortunately I rarely get it.  As I get older I find it harder to stay in bed.  My back hurts and I need to get up.  I&#8217;ll go a week or so of getting 6 hours, and then one day I&#8217;ll sleep for 12.  Like last night, I fell asleep at 3am and today I woke up at 4pm.  That&#8217;s 13 hours, for those of you counting.  My back hurt like hell, but I managed to sleep, only waking up a couple times.  I feel great right now.  You know what&#8217;s going to suck though?  I&#8217;ll probably be up until noon tomorrow and sleep all fucking day.<\/p>\n<p>Even when I was in the Navy, and I had to be awake at 6:30am every day, I&#8217;d still stay up most of the night.  We got a two hour lunch every day&#8211;we were supposed to use it for errands and excercise.  However, I&#8217;d spend that 2 hours trying to sleep.  Of course it would take me an hour to fall asleep.  I&#8217;d get an hour nap and go back to work at 1pm.<\/p>\n<p>When I worked at Activision I had to be at work at 8:30am.  To get to work on time, I&#8217;d have to wake up no later than 6am.  Normal people would get ready for bed around 10pm right?  Not me.  I&#8217;d stay up well past midnight, unable to sleep.  I&#8217;d get about 4-5 hours at night and be exhausted all day.  But as SOON as I got off of work I&#8217;d be wide awake and ready to party.  Funny how that works eh?<\/p>\n<p>When I was in the Navy and we went overseas, we&#8217;d spend a good 2 weeks out and a coupel of days in some foreign port.  I&#8217;d stay out all night with my friends.  Normally we wouldn&#8217;t even go to sleep, and then go straight to work in the morning.  All day long I&#8217;d be absolutely worthless, even with my naps at lunchtime.  All day long I&#8217;d think of how I couldn&#8217;t wait for work to be over so I could go to sleep.  5pm would roll around and all of a sudden&#8230;  I&#8217;d be wide awake!  I couldn&#8217;t sleep when everyone was going out!  So I&#8217;d stay out all night again, and the cycle would repeat itself.<\/p>\n<p>Naps.  Who doesn&#8217;t love a good nap?  My normal schedule is asleep at 4 and awake at noon.  If I don&#8217;t get my 8, or even 6 hours, I&#8217;ll be sooo tired at around 5 or 6pm and need a good nap.<\/p>\n<p>My internal clock has worked against me my whole life.  It makes me miserable at times.  No matter what I&#8217;ve tried, I just can&#8217;t seem to be a normal person.<\/p>\n<p>Normal is boring, anyway.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am a night person. When normal people are getting ready for bed, I&#8217;m in my prime. Midnight is usually when I feel the most awake. I&#8217;ve been this way all my life. I&#8217;ve heard people say things like, &#8220;If I sleep too late, I feel like I&#8217;m wasting my day.&#8221; I beg to differ. 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